Tuesday, this photo popped up on my personal Facebook timeline. It was 5 years ago. Neal and I had traveled to the Florida Keys for a week long vacation and we were enjoying our first day on the beach. I had been on Weight Watchers for a few months and was down to 217 pounds before going on my first Scaleless Summer.
When I started Coffee Cake and Cardio, I wanted to lose weight. I had joined Weight Watchers in the 220’s and was working to get back down to my lowest adult weight, 206. I remember feeling amazing on that vacation. I was back down to size 16’s and felt confident in what I was wearing. I remember following the Weight Watchers Points plan religiously and being hesitant to share my weight on my blog (I don’t think you’ll find it in the archives). I did share my losses though and like that I can look back on what I ate, the workouts I was doing, and what my results were.
When I saw this picture the other day, my instant thought was, “Man!! What I wouldn’t give to look like that again”. It’s funny because looking back, I was really happy, and yet, I was still working hard to lose more weight. I clearly wasn’t satisfied with my weight at the time and was working to get back down to my healthier weight. I had a lot of thoughts when I saw this photo…
- Why was I so hard on myself back then?
- Why am I still so hard on myself?
- I was working really hard to lose weight and I was successful
- I’ve done it before, I can do it again
- Man! I looked good.
- I was really happy
- I need vacation with Neal
- I weighed 217! It’s going to be so hard to get back there
When I was talking to my dear friend Kelly from No Thanks To Cake, it hit me! 217 seems like it’s so far away. My brain instantly perceives 217 as something that is going to take a long time to achieve. Heck, 230 seems like it’s impossible some days. But then I realized, I currently weigh 33 pounds more than 217. I can lose 33 pounds! Why did I feel like 217 wasn’t achievable? What did I feel so defeated? I want to feel the way I felt back then again. I want to have successful weeks and to see results. I want to feel better and to see the victories, not just on the scale, but in my day to day life.
It was hard coming across this photo, but I’m glad I did! It motivated me.
Starting weight: 254 pounds
Week 3 weight: 250.4 pounds
Week 3 results: +1.5 pounds
Total weight loss: 3.6 pounds
I gained 1.5 pounds this week. I am not surprised by the gain as I did not follow the Weight Watchers plan last Thursday-Sunday while traveling and visiting with family. I shared more about last weekend here, but in the end, I didn’t track consistently and I ate out a lot.
The past 3 days have been great. I’ve worked out at OrangeTheory twice, tracked everything I ate, and stayed away from office temptations (donuts!!). I obviously did not want to see a weight gain, especially in week 3, but I know why I gained. I think that’s better than doing everything you could have and still gaining weight (that’s frustrating!!).
Today I’m headed to Dallas, Texas for a 4 day conference. I am going to eat out every meal, all 4 days. I am going to document everything I eat and will share it here on CCC. My goals are simple…
- Track everything I eat in the Weight Watchers App
- Workout each day
- Drink lots of water
As someone who weighs in on Wednesdays, I want to get out of the rut of having a good Wednesday-Friday, struggling on the weekend, and then working hard on Monday and Tuesday before I have to weigh-in on Wednesday. It’s easy to want to change my weigh-in date to Friday, that way I have more time between me and the weekend before a weigh-in, but I’m not going to change it. I am going to learn how to be consistent, to work through the hurdles, and to stay on track regardless of what day it is. It isn’t easy, but I’m learning!
I’m proud of what I’ve achieved these past 3 weeks and know I’ll learn a lot while traveling these next 4 days.