Good morning from cloudy Minnesota! We had some legit thunderstorms here last night but downtown Saint Paul is slowly waking up.
I’ll admit, as hard as it is to be away from Neal, Magnolia, and Theodore this week, I’m enjoying having some me time. I’ve had a great summer so far, but I’m feeling slightly overwhelmed by two things.
1. How is the summer almost over? Yes, I’m thinking of this from a school perspective, but still. In just a few weeks the students will begin arriving and then it’s go time! The fall is a really busy time of year so I feel like these are my last few weeks of “calm”.
To make the most of this week I’m eager to soak up everything I’m learning at this work conference and to organize myself for the academic year ahead. It’s nice being able to step away and to look at things from outside the box.
2. How is Magnolia almost a year old? It is absolutely mind boggling that she’ll be 10 months old tomorrow. I know September 14 will be here before we know it and I’m slightly overwhelmed. Yesterday on my flight to Minneapolis I went through all of the photos on my iPhone and just couldn’t believe how much she’s changed. Each moment is sweeter than the last, but I do my miss my little baby.
On the flip side of this are the emotions that come with Magnolia turning one and my body not being where I’d like it to be. I want so badly to step on the scale come September 14 and to see a number close to 234 (my pre pregnancy weight). I’m in a much healthier place mentally, which I am grateful for, but I also want to lose the excess weight I am carrying.
My scaleless summer has been good but I know I have more work to put in in order to reach my goal. I’ve spent most of my scaleless summer essentially recovering from extreme dieting and am now learning how to eat all foods in moderation. I want to use this week to create a plan for these next two months and to spark a fire. I don’t want any regrets come September 14, but I need to be focused.
Last week I watched the movie Fed Up and I have to tell you, it shook me! I grew up in the “fat free” era and am still trying to figure out what foods I want to be putting in my body each day for long term health. The movie was extremely thought provoking and it has made to question a lot of things and re-evaluate my daily diet. I’m still eating more processed foods than I’d like and I want to create a plan this week on ways to increase my whole food consumption and ways to decrease my processed foods consumption.
For me, I think it boils down to time. I need to be organized and to prepare foods ahead of time, that way when I’m rushed during the work week I have healthy foods that are easy to grab. Again, I am not looking to go on another extreme diet, but I do have a choice in what I eat each day. I’ve felt this way for years, but I want to eat less processed foods. Watching Fed Up just made me realize how many have crept back into my daily life.
This week could be tough, as I’m staying in a hotel until Saturday, but it’s a great chance for me to reset. Yesterday I picked up from vegetables, hummus, and cold press juice at the Saint Paul Farmers Market, picked up from yogurt at the grocery store, and made myself a salad from their salad bar for dinner last night. Although I’ll be eating out, I know I can make healthy choices.
I am also going to workout each day this week, especially because I’ll be missing football practice this week. The hotel gym isn’t anything special, but it’s a gym. This morning I completed 30 minutes on the elliptical and then lifted weights. It was a good workout and a great way to start the day.
Moving forward I hope to blog more about what I’m doing to lose weight without extreme dieting and to be more open about that quest. I didn’t realize it at the time but part of my “recovery” from extreme dieting was also letting go of blogging about extreme dieting. I feel like I’m in a much better place now and am excited to write about myself again.
I hope you had a great weekend and are excited about the week ahead. Make it a great one!