It’s incredibly bittersweet to be in Magnolia’s second week of life. Her first week was nothing I could have ever expected! To see her grow, change, and thrive is more than I could have ever asked for. The days do fly by however, so I am trying my hardest to treasure this time and these days!
I had no idea what life after delivery would be like but many things have surprised me. I knew I’d be sleep deprived, I knew it’d take time to adjust to being home, and I knew Magnolia would be completely dependent on Neal and I. Here are some of the things I didn’t expect…
1. I would love Magnolia more and more each day. I fell in love with her the moment I saw her but I never could have imagined the love that grows every day. I would do anything for this girl! Anything.
2. My husband amazes me every day! Whether he’s rocking our daughter to sleep, changing diapers, making me dinner, walking Theodore, or telling me how beautiful I look postpartum, he amazes me.
3. I would fall back in love with my body. My body is the most amazing thing ever and I cant believe I haven’t recognized that all these years. It amazed me during labor, through these sleep deprived days, and through my recovery. I’m just amazed how quickly my body has bounced back!
4. I would have no desire to weigh myself. I had every intention of weighing myself before going to the hospital and then weighing myself when I returned home, but I did neither! Weighing myself was the last thing on my mind when I started having contractions and I could have cared less when I got home from the hospital. During the middle of last week I thought about maybe weighing myself at the 1 week mark but later decided not to. I don’t want to be discouraged by the number on the scale during this time. It’s not my focus right now and I know I need to give my body time to heal first!
5. I would start eating intuitively. Magnolia’s needs far outweigh my own and what has come with that is the clarity to eat when I’m hungry and to listen to my body. It’s very easy these days to let meal times go by, which is good and bad, so I’m just having to roll with it and to listen to my body. It feels great not having food or diet be my focus, but I’m still working hard to fuel my body for breastfeeding.
6. That breastfeeding would be so challenging, physically and mentally. Holy moly. Breastfeeding is really challenging and yet I’m so grateful to be able to do it. The first few days were bliss but now the pain has set in and my milk supply is all over the place. It is equally challenging mentally and physically, but I know it’ll get better!
Neal and I are really excited to have made it through our first week with a newborn and are transitioning into week two. My mom returned to Texas on Monday, which was really difficult, but we’re eager to figure out how best to care for Magnolia without an extra set of hands. So far, so good. Fingers and toes crossed!