I just can’t believe we’re going to have another baby in 7.5 weeks! Right now, I am caught in the whirlwind of third trimester emotions. On one hand I can not wait to meet our son, to introduce Magnolia to her baby brother, to be on maternity leave, and to be on the other side of pregnancy. On the other hand, I am incredibly overwhelmed by the reality that we’re having another baby, nervous about the transition from one to two kids, and am somewhat in denial, as seen by how many things I should get done before baby arrives. I feel like I’m running out of time and yet, I still don’t have a fire under by butt to get things done. Purposeful procrastination? Who knows!
This month I had a pretty reasonable list of things I wanted to tackle from my Baby Prep To Do List, one of which being cleaning and decorating our loft. That’s one thing I love about our house, we have a loft off of our master bedroom. It has acted as a storage area for the past year off and on, but I really want to get it in order before baby as I think it’ll be a nice retreat while I’m on maternity leave. I love the sunlight in the loft, the view of the lake, and the possibility of it being a retreat space for me.
My first step, organizing all the baby gear in the loft, moving things to our actual storage area off of the loft, and beginning to design my vision for the space. On Sunday, I tackled the loft and was really proud of what I accomplished during Magnolia’s nap. It’s step one, but hopefully I can continue to piece it together over the next few weeks! This is what I’m thinking for my desk area!!
On the working mom front, I am working really hard to get everything done and ready for the next academic year before going on maternity leave. I still need to finalize my maternity leave plan, which is pretty important, but I feel good about the plan Neal and I have talked about. I felt a lot of pressure after having Magnolia to get back to work quickly and this time around I’m trying to make my own wellness, healing, and bonding with baby boy a priority before returning to work.
The work days have been going by quickly and I know the weeks will fly by before baby. I have been utilizing my “Brain Dump” technique each day, which has really helped me to stay organized. My goal this next week and a half is to really list out what must be done before baby and what would be nice to get done. My goal is to have the “must complete list” completed by mid June and then the “nice to list” done by July 1. Any pregnant days in July are just an added bonus.
On the health and wellness front, I have mixed emotions. I’m at that point in pregnancy where I’m uncomfortable and I won’t deny having mixed feelings about my body’s shape and size. It happens. I think pregnancy is emotional, from start to finish, and I know it’s normal to struggle with body image in these last few weeks. Last pregnancy, I was SO eager to get back in shape and to lose weight. I think because of that I struggled to produce enough breast milk and lost focus on the healing my body needed to go through those first few months.
I’m definitely eager and excited to get back into shape, but I want to focus on baby, breastfeeding, and my own wellness before diving into weight loss and fitness postpartum. Trust me, I want to lose the weight I’ve put on these past two pregnancies and to get back down to a weight I’m comfortable in, but I’ve learned the hard way that rushing it has negative consequences.
Having said all that, I am super proud of my workouts this pregnancy. Last week I over did it during a 5K walk and an OrangeTheory class, but I felt really, really great this weekend while walking a 2 mile race with Magnolia and this morning at OrangeTheory. It’s weird taking it easy during a work out, but boy does my body need me to slow down a bit. I am learning that I can still get a great workout in and not overdo it.
The past 12 months have been a whirlwind in their own way, but I really hope I can treasure each week leading up to baby’s arrival, can make the most of my maternity leave, and can be patient with myself as I transition to being a working mom with 2 kids. It’s an exciting and scary time, but I am very, very grateful for this life!