It’s hard to put into words what my experience has been like these past 10 days. My decision to stop dieting has been years in the making, but it took me a while to realize that it would be the best decision I’d ever make for myself and my family.
My decision gave me instant freedom. Freedom to make guilt free decisions, to enjoy life, and to live in the moment. Over the past 10 days that freedom has been seen in the choices I’m making. I’ve chosen to eat all types of foods, regardless of their macro or micro nutrients. I’ve enjoyed green smoothies, eggs, taco seasoned ground turkey, AdvoCare shakes, salads, beer, pizza, pasta, brown rice, veggie patties, chips and queso, ice cream, hummus and carrots, peanut butter, brownies, and lots of coffee.
As freeing as it has been to stop dieting it’s also incredibly scary. Multiple times I’ve doubted my decision and have been tempted to find a program or plan to follow. My fear steams from the fact that I’ve been overweight my entire life, so creating healthy habits that lead to weight loss without being on a diet is scary to me.
Knowing that I can eat whatever I want is empowering, but there were a few times this past week when I felt a little out of control. Not that I was binging on food, but when you’re so used to restricting foods, you can feel a little out of control. Looking back I can see just how balanced my diet has been, even though I’ve been enjoying desserts and meals out of the house. Sure Neal and I had pizza last Thursday night, I went out for pasta with a friend Friday night, and I’ve had a bowl of REAL ice cream almost every night the past few days, but I’ve also eaten a lot of really healthy foods! Heck, I think I’ve eaten more vegetables the past 10 days than I have on a diet so far this year.
Going off of a diet has honestly made me want to be healthier than ever before. Not dieting has made me realize just how important my decisions and choices are. No longer is the diet telling me what to eat (or what not to eat), I’m choosing what to eat and I love it! I want to be healthier and I want to be able to enjoy my “not so healthy foods” as much as my healthier choices. Take Cinco de Mayo for example. I LOVE Cinco de Mayo and alllll the food that comes with it! Because I knew I’d be washing chips, queso, and tacos down with Coronas that night, I made healthy choices during the day. I had a green smoothie for breakfast and a small salad for lunch. By the time dinner rolled around I had ZERO guilt about my two plates of chips and queso. I enjoy my dinner and the stopped eating when I was satisfied (only had one taco instead of two).
Not dieting is really scary, but it is the most empowering decision I’ve made in quite some time. I have no idea what I weigh and honestly, I have no plans to weigh myself. Why does it matter? I could get on the scale and see that my new lifestyle is leading to weight loss OR I could get on the scale and see that I’ve gained weight and begin to doubt myself and my decision. It’s a lose, lose in my opinion. For now, I am going to focus on how I feel. If you listen to your body you’ll know if you need to back off from certain foods or the amount of food you’re eating. You’ll also know if you need to workout more. I can tell you that I feel best when I eat a lot of vegetables and I feel horrible when I don’t workout. That’s what I’m focused on, regardless of what the scale says!