This morning I met up with Becky for coffee and a 3 mile walk on the Crescent Trail in Bethesda, MD. Before our walk we swung into Dunkin Donuts for a cup of Joe.
While waiting in line I listened to the people before me place their orders. Coffees made with cream and sugar. Dozens of donuts and donut holes. Bagel sandwiches made with sausage, eggs, and cheese. I stood there and just couldn’t help but feel frustrated and a little jealous.
Minutes later I posted this photo on Instagram with the comment “As I order my black coffee I can’t help but admit my jealousy of the people ordering donuts and coffee filled with cream and sugar. I wish I could just be thin and not have to stress about every little thing I put into my body. Just being honest.”
I was honestly overwhelmed with the response to this photo and my comment. Comments of support and a few comments of disgust. It was actually quite interesting to read the diverse array of comments.
In the end though, my sister’s comment was SPOT ON!!! She’s always so good at clarifying. Alison said, “I was just reading through these comments. It’s not about the actual donut. It’s the fact that you have this constant internal battle about what to put into your body. It would be nice for once to not think about it and to not feel guilty about it or afraid that you will gain weight for treating yourself. It sucks always having to be the person who is constantly thinking about the limitations in their diet and it doesn’t help that this struggle has gone on for many many years. I love you and I’m completely feeling your struggles today. I no joke wrote this in my journal last night “I’ve never known what it’s like to live without this struggle.” I hope you have an amazing day!”
My sister was right. It wasn’t about the donut. It was about the fact that I live every moment thinking about what I’m putting into my body and how it is going to affect me. It can often feel like a prison.
Moving into this week I’ve made a pretty detailed plan for myself, creating a meal plan and a workout plan. I’ve had a shift in focus, which I’ll share with y’all later this week, but I’m excited to tackle another week.
|Monday||1 egg, 2 egg whites, and turkey bacon||Lettuce, tuna, and pita pocket||Greek salad (lettuce, grilled chicken, cucumbers, tomato, and feta)||Greek yogurt and blueberries, banana and almonds|
|Tuesday||1 egg, 2 egg whites, and turkey bacon||Lettuce, diced chicken, and pita pocket||Turkey taco salad (lettuce, ground turkey, pinto beans, and salsa)||Greek yogurt and blueberries, banana and almonds|
|Wednesday||Oatmeal with blueberries||Lettuce, diced chicken, and pita pocket||Turkey taco salad (lettuce, ground turkey, pinto beans, and salsa)||Greek yogurt, banana and almonds|
|Thursday||1 egg, 2 egg whites, and turkey bacon||Lettuce, diced chicken, and pita pocket||Greek salad (lettuce, grilled chicken, cucumbers, tomato, and feta)||Greek yogurt and blueberries, banana and almonds|
|Friday||Oatmeal with mixed berries||Lettuce, tuna, and pita pocket||Veggie burger and roasted veggies||Greek yogurt and almonds|
|Monday||AM- Body Revolution Cardio 1 and Workout 1
PM- DC Divas Football practice
|Tuesday||AM- Spin Class|
|Wednesday||PM- DC Divas Football practice|
|Thursday||PM- Run and Weight Lifting|
|Friday||AM- Body Revolution Cardio 1 and Workout 2|
What’s one goal you have for the week ahead?
My goal is to measure everything I eat and to stick to my plans!!