5 months! What an amazing ride it has been.
It’s truly amazing to see how much Magnolia has grown and changed over the past 5 months. Earlier this week, as we moved Magnolia to size 3 diapers, Neal turned to me and said “We’re doing it!”. I think sometimes I get so caught up in the moment that I don’t step back to see just what we’ve done. We’ve learned so much these past 5 months and our daughter is growing! Life is good!
Breastfeeding has hands down been the hardest part of having a baby (for me at least). Ok, let me retract what I just said and clarify. Breastfeeding during the first 3 weeks was really, really hard but it gets SO much better. Pumping is what has made breastfeeding hard! It’s unreal how easy it is to measure my worth by how much milk I was able to pump in a given day. If it’s a “light” day, it’s easy to feel like I’m not doing what I need to be doing for my daughter. Other days I want to give my breasts a high five. What I’ve had to learn is that I am not the number of ounces I pump in a given day. My daughter is happy and healthy and I’m doing the best I can!
During our 5th month postpartum I returned to work full time and have had to re-learn how to balance everything. Some days are really great and some days I just can’t do it all. My goal is to be as balanced as possible, so some days (most days) something has to give. That’s been the hardest part. Deciding what to drop. Clearly I can’t slack on providing for Magnolia, supporting and loving Neal, taking care of my health and wellness, or accomplishing my tasks during the work day. I can, however, blog less, put my phone away, and watch less tv. When I’m feeling overwhelmed, I’m learning to turn off all technology and to refocus. It’s amazing how much time you can waste in front of a computer, phone, or tv.
Weight loss postpartum has been… inconsistent. Some things have been consistent, but in my opinion, steady weight loss is dependent on consistency. You need to fuel your body properly, eat enough but not too much, burn calories through cardio and weight lifting, and you have to be in the right mental state. The stars have to aline and that doesn’t always happen. Sure, I should “just do it”, but life happens. It’s not an excuse, but I fully acknowledge that I don’t put enough time into the small details. Weighing my food, measuring my food, tracking everything, and being prepared for weekends. I have achieved a lot of really great things these past 5 months, but I haven’t necessarily seen steady weight loss.
December 23, 2014 (3 weeks pregnant) – 234.5lbs
September 2, 2015 (2 weeks before Magnolia was born) – 281.1lbs
October 10, 2015 (1 month postpartum) – 256.6lbs
February 12, 2015 (5 months postpartum) – 248lbs
As of today, I am roughly 14 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I really want to get back to that weight and while it’s hard to see that I’ve “only” lost 8.6 pounds these past 4 months, my body has changed a lot and I’m really grateful to have been able to breastfeed these past 5 months.
This month (February) I’ve been following the Weight Watchers Simply Filling plan. I am doing great eating foods that are Simply Filling, but I know my consumption is off. Weight loss is a science and my science is off. Being a Weight Watchers member these past 4 months has definitely helped me to get my diet back on track and to pay more attention to what I’m eating, but I know I need to be precise with my portion sizes and my tracking.
I have some goals I want to reach before Magnolia turns 1 and in order to achieve those goals I’m really going to need to follow my program to a T! I need to track everything, measure everything, and be aware of what I’m putting in my body. I also need to enjoy my workouts and to lift heavier. Weight loss is hard work, but if you don’t work hard you won’t see consistent results. My results so far have been awesome and I’m proud of myself, but I’m ready to put the burners on.